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I get all frustrated when ina and suzanna came into light. I might not know these 2 chaps but no matter what i rest my case....all are unrealiable i.e all are the same. Twisted fact, I can always do what I did in the past but I am not going to. Instead, I am going all mild and play the waiting game instead. I still have the time and opportunity to switch over to greener patch of grass. This entry will remind me of the fact that ALL ARE THE SAME and to keep looking for greener grass.

I drop hints but it just doesn't get into the head. When I do the same to others, I wonder how they can manage to read between the lines. I am dumb. So dumb that I am not making the right decision. I am going to suffer the same fate...surely if I do not make the right move. Just my luck!

Off the records, I had a dream couple of nights back. Dreamt that a friend passed away. Tried to get some news whether my dream is true but to no avail. Maybe the dream is shedding some light somewhere....I don't know. YOU tell me...tell me if the decision is right.

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